rl with karkat

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[ it's been so long since she's had a good, legitimate feelings jam in a pile of pointy things that aren't at all comfortable; it wouldn't be a stretch to say that feferi is positively excited at the chance. it will be nice to actually discuss things with someone without having to go into a troll romance explanation slash situational argument. she has good reason to be excited!

crossing the room, she tugs on the collar of the romance expert's shirt, motioning to the horn pile. ]

Ready, Carpkat? I am excited to get my glub on!

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[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[grimaces at the tug, snatching at his shirt back as he stands up to make his way to the pile.] I've got a name, Peixes. [nothing is urgently claiming his attention, so he figures he can afford to give her a little of his time. besides, he knows people are good for nothing if they're upset or sad, and it's not at all because he feels friendly concern that he would want to help, nope. also not because he loves dicussing romance or anyhing of the sort.]

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

My names are more fun! [ WHEEE flops back into the horns with a graceless honk. nobody even turns at this point; she's been doing this for a good hour. they might as well be in the middle of nowhere surrounded by no one. ] I'm glubbing excited about this! I haven't had a good feelings jam in so long I can't even remember my last one.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[glances around to make sure no one's paying attention and nope, they're all too into their own little bubbles of. whatever.

he sits down, trying not to honk 30 horns while doing so. fails, at least 3 or 4 go off and he grits his teeth in annoyance at himself.]

I thought that's what you'd been doing for the last few hours.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

What, by myself? You can't jam by yourself, Crabkat.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Karkat.

[SIGHS LIKE THIS IS THE WORSE THING TO HAPPEN TO HIM] Alright. Let's start this shit.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

Feferi! [ OH HAHA WE ARE SO FUNNY. ] I think you'd better get comfortable because it is a long story.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

In case you hadn't fucking noticed, we're sitting on a pile of horns. Comfortable is a distant notion.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

I like them! I think they're very comfy. [ leans back. a chorus sounds. still, nobody cares. ]

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Sea trolls. [SCOFFS. SO WEIRD.] Just...start from the beginning, alright. Glub away.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ karkat is probably very busy so she'll... give him the abridged version. ] I am flushed for Sollux and Aradia is also flushed for Sollux and I don't know... what I am supposed to do.

[ wow, that was not at all how she wanted that to come out, but... it gets the... general point across. ]

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

That has the potential to become a train wreck. [but somehow...he is not all that surprised.]

Where does he stand in all this?

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

Heheh, yeah... I haven't spoken to him about it, from our timeline or over the community. [ because if she does, things will change. they may not change for the better. ]

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Then do you have any idea what he feels for Aradia? You have to thread carefully with this shit, make the wrong move and you could lose your chance.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

But I like Aradia. What if by telling him how I feel, she loses her chance? What if he'll be much happier with Aradia?

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Shit, you're not going to get anywhere with your quadrants if you keep thinking like that. You can't go through them trying not to hurt anyone.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

I like to try and do the right thing! If he would be happier with her, that would be two happy people. And I would probably be happy that he was happy, so that's three happy people.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

And how the fuck would you know if they'd be happier together? Nobody can predict that crap. You can', she can't, and he can't. There's only one way to find out, so you either be all self scarificing about it or I guess you fucking talk to him.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

As the future Empress I am conditioned to find the best situation for everyone! I don't just want to blindly rush ahead without properly thinking it though.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Did I say you have to rush in without thinking it through? It's a choice you have to make, it's either let her have him, or try and go for it yourself. If all you want is for other people to be happy while you sit sad and alone and moping flushed after someone already taken, that's up to you.

[SO CHOSE WISELY GIRL :T]

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

I would not be moping! If it was the best situation I would be happy with it!

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

If that was true, there wouldn't be a problem, would there? [picking at a thread in his pants]

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ ah, he's got her there. she draws back for a moment in thought, turning away.

he's totally right. ]

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[sighs...and looks away as well, out of...IDK RESPECT.] It's normal, okay? That kind of shit makes you feel shitty. Even if you try to be happy for them.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ fiddles with her hair. ] I don't want to be the kind of person who doesn't think about others. Though maybe that is just the future Empress in me talking.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

If you're going to think about others before yourself, then this kind of stuff is to be expected. You want him to be happy, but that might mean you feel like a useless grublicker for a while.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ HHHHHHHHH FEELINGS ARE HARD. ROLLS AROUND IN THE HORNS!!!! ]

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[JALDJH FLAILS] Stop that! We can't glub about feelings over all this fucking honking!

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ STOPS ROLLING THEN JEEZ. lays awkwardly on her stomach. ] I think I will tell him, then. It isn't my responsibility to watch over everyone else. If I don't reach for my own happiness, nobody else is going to!

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[nod nod] Don't wait for her to make her move. Just go for it and see what happens and if it doesn't go your way, well. Fuck. I'm sure you'll try and be happy for them even though it'll fucking hurt.

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I would be okay with it, as long as I had actually tried my best. [ PULLS HIM INTO A BIG FISHY HUG >///< ] Thank you, Carpkat.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[SPLUTTERS AND PUSHES HER AWAY] STOP — Get off —

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

Crabkat you are ruining the moment!

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

[growls and PATS HER SHOULDER] I hate moments!

[glubspeak.livejournal.com]

[ that counts as a hug back. she pulls away. ] I'm going to go talk to him now.

[kismesist.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Good luck or whatever you say.